Still Trying To Accept I Am Diabetic.

by Rachel
(UK)

I discovered I was diabetic on my 34th Birthday last year, it is now 11 months since I found out. I had put on a lot of weight and had been trying to lose it for a while, I also have a very strong family history. With my dad, my brother and TWELVE other relatives with the condition!!

It has been so hard for me to become healthy, I have lost nearly 5 stone (70 pounds) and have gone back to the slim person I used to be, which is making it harder to stick to being healthy, because I know that a high blood sugar has done this. It's really difficult.

I am at work today and I can barely function, I am so tired it is an effort to speak! I know logically what the answer is, but am just my own worst enemy. It is like I don't fully believe I have the condition, so when I am out I will always have a danish with my coffees, I have developed an addiction to chocolate (I never had a sweet tooth before diabetes - ever!)and for years and years I was always on a diet. Now, I can eat what I want and not put on weight - in fact the opposite. I am losing it. Recently I have felt a "tightness" in my right kidney area, it has come and gone and reading this back, It is obvious what I have to do, or face the consequences.

Has anyone else had this reaction to diabetes - how can I get my head around it and become healthy?